Maggie Grace McCoun

Today is Maggie's 1st birthday ever!! 1 year ago today I was taking a walk around the Furman lake when I got a call...today was the day! When should I head to the hospital? What was Emily going through!?!?!

I rushed to the hospital hoping to meet little maggie soon! I waited anxiously in the waiting area with my camera ready and a little gift for Maggie and Em (a headband for maggie and nail polish for Em!) And mom and dad and Kasey arrived. We waited....and the McCoun family arrived. And waited some more!! I was getting so nervous! Finally we got to see them!!! When we entered the room, my first concern was Emily!! What a relief..she made it. Then I got to meet little Mags :)


Some of my favorite pictures of peanut:

happy birthday little peanut! I love being an aunt to this little bundle of joy!

marriage

Well, I've been married for almost 6 months now!! Half a year. This time last year, Daniel & I had just started going on dates...we had our first convo about marriage sometime around the beginning of September. I feel kinda guilty being the typical sappy newlywed, writing about how much I love being married, etc etc etc. Which is true! I honestly think that this is my favorite time in life ever. But one of the hardest. I have never been so deeply aware of my own sin in my entire life. Never have I experienced the level of exposure I have experienced in the past 6 months! Can you imagine someone following you around with a video camera? And getting to watch you in your best and worst moments, captured on film? Well, someone knows that much about me and I can't hide it anymore: I am a big sinner. But, this is the sweetest season God has given me. I am seriously married to my best friend! Of course every wife thinks her husband is the most awesome man in the world, and I am the same :) Im convinced I have the best husband in the world!

LP: weeding out selfishness

A few pics from the LP!

Well, our 3 weeks at the project are over. It was fun, it was great, and it was sanctifying. Thats the typical response about how the LP was...and its true. More than anything, my time at the LP showed me how selfish I am, and how much I want to be served. I do not at all want to die to myself. I struggled with being grumpy and moody quite often, because I would have this plan in my head for how the day should go, and my day went the way I wanted it to go probably 3 times out of the 19 days there!! I wont miss taking a shower in water up to my ankles with little specks in it, or the oversized closet we lived in for the last 5 days. But I will miss the students! We are so thankful for the things we take for granted....praise God (seriously) for a stove, clean sheets, warm shower, and closet! And a house that is just ours, not 150 other peoples :)

Life.....!!!

It's been too long since I have written...and there is so much to type, I could honestly write a book! Well. March 3, the Lord graciously gave me the gift of marrying Daniel!...! I have seriously learned so much about trusting God, prayer, and sin through this whole process. I have so much to be thankful for, my best friends who let me cry on their shoulders so many times about singleness and fear, people who prayed for me and prayed the Lord would allow us to date if He wished, and people who have listened to me and told me the gospel as I struggle seeing the depth of my sin in life right now.  The theme of life right now- grace. Because I honestly thought I was better than I really am. Every day, I am realizing how desperate I am...I really need Jesus.  Some pics! Since I havent posted anything (if you cant tell, I am not the most organized person in the world. As soon as I had alot of tasks on my plate, I couldnt juggle them all that well)

 We're engaged!

 Me and Em, right after Daniel and I went on our first date last summer!

 My best friends in the world- all the girls at the rehearsal

 Me and Lauren! Daniel's brothers fiance :)

 Em and I on my wedding day....poor Em. I stressed her out so badly that day.

 Me and Kase!

 Us on our honeymoon! Best week of my life!

 My handsome husband!

 The staff girls at a staff retreat we had recently :)

 Em and little mags! The cutest little girl in the world!

Me and Dan...we went camping!!

In life, I am experiencing the only stability I truly have is Jesus. As my identity changes in the world- new name, new role in life, new season- I am still covered in Christ and thankfully He doesnt change. But, more than anything in the world, the main emotion I feel even as I look at these pictures is thankfulness. I am so so so so so thankful for how God is sovereign and knows what I need in life.

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I cant even think of a title for this...all I can say is that I love this song, which basically expresses the cry of my heart...

believing and battling lies is a lifestyle for me. In many ways, I didnt plant the lies, but must uproot them and make new paths for Truth in my life. To see God take me from a place of complete darkness and hopelessness, living a life in isolation and depression, to a life of grace and freedom is nothing short of a miracle, and the more I grieve the loss of dreams and hopes for my past, the more I see God's redeeming power and faithfulness to me by giving me the gift of a loving and accepting Dad because of Jesus. I am accepted. The One who accepts me really loves me. My flesh continues to fight against this truth, but my heart knows it to be true... It is.

Maggie Grace McCoun!

EMILY HAD A BABY!!!!!!!!
If you cant tell, Im SO SO SO SO SO excited about being an aunt, and even more excited for Em and Jake to get to have a family of 3!
Even right now I wish I could be in Clinton helping with Maggie and holding her. She is just precious and sweet and little, and I already love her so much. I see how great and important the family unit is in life, and how God has really created it for us to know more of Him and worship Him. What a small reflection of His fatherly love for us that earthly parents get to experience and communicate to their own children. I feel like I have in some ways gotten to really be a part of Emily's preparation for Maggie, and cant wait to spend time with her and pray for her and love her for who and how God created her to be:)
Some of the time in pictures....

 Emily's shower at the Camps house- all of the sisters :)

 Emily's shower in Clinton, complete with Camus and Maggie there in spirit (in Amandas artwork!)

 Em and her D group!

 Me and Em :) You cant tell it, but she's due any day now!

 My first picture of the beautiful new mom and little Maggie. Overjoyed to finally meet her and check on Em.

 The McCouns!!! aka best looking family in the south...this is after hours and hours of labor!

 Jake holds his little girl:)

 It's my turn to hold her..... :)

 Beautiful. Look at Em- the 2 princesses.

 Baby princess. So precious.

Mom and daughter! Praise the Lord for this amazing gift. I cant wait to help...and for all the joy little Maggie will bring to our family.

the question of the day...

I've been reading a chapter of E.M. Bounds complete work on prayer every day. Prayer...I am really intrigued by it and have experienced so many answers to prayer personally over the past couple years that I am pushed to pray more and more. I do like to pray and talk with God and dont do it nearly enough. After I've laid my soul bare before the Lord, I immediately experience peace and rest, knowing the sovereign Lord has heard all my cries, and knowing that (hard truth) life is not about me but about Him, and about making me more like Him. Its about His will being done, and Him getting glory, for our joy.

So the question I'm thinking about is about faith...E.M. Bounds says the first thing we must have to pray is faith. We must "out of sheer helplessness, stretch forth hands of faith. He must believe, where he cannot prove." Faith hopes and believes. It TRUSTS.

As I have been thinking about my own trust issues with the Lord which are many, this question from ch. 2 has been on my mind: "Have I faith in God? Have I real faith- faith which keeps me in perfect peace, about the things of earth and the things of heaven?"