Wherever I am...

Wherever I am, I want to live in light of God's will. God's plan. Sometimes it seems alot harder than other times to really know what God wants and where He is leading me. Before I began to follow Jesus, I cut my own trail, my own path to take me wherever my heart desired. It was alot easier in some ways, but easier isnt always better.

Well, I havent updated this in a few weeks, and its a sure sign that Im busy- too busy if you ask me. My life is consumed with work at Atlanta Bread, trying to sleep some, preparing to raise support (what I will live off of), and following God. Weekly, I am able to do some things that I love, namely a wednesday night Bible study with some older women at the church! We meet and talk about a Beth Moore study called Stepping Up...looking at the psalms of Ascent. I love it-so far, its been very applicable to my life. Recently I looked into how I do have alot of insecurities in who I am and in who God made me to be. Rather, I have identity issues- I try to find my worth in what I am rather than WHOSE I am. I am God's.

Work is fun! Its challenging to be joyful, as I get there around 6 or 7 often, and if you know me well, you know that Im a night owl. I pray alot, and love taking deliveries through downtown and some cool neighborhood homes. It is definitely a brightener too, to talk to people often. Ive been able to share with alot about what I am doing and what God has done in my life!

Last weekend, 2 fun things went on- I went with the team that went to South Africa to a wedding! A guy on our team got married!!! It was so so so much fun to be with the team. And, I went to Orlando Florida to a Support Raising Boot camp. Boy was it a marathon- we learned about how to raise funds, about what God says about raising support, and got to talk to and meet other missionaries from around the US. It was so good for my perspective on support raising!!!

However, Im overwhelmed. I am nervous, and trusting in God, but dont know when I will get to a campus to start ministry. I am so so so excited though!!!! The other night, I got to lead a senior girls Bible study at furman, and felt so excited- its a taste of what I will be doing on staff! If you read this, please pray that God would be my guide here in this time of uncertainty and fear to step out of my comfort zone into an unknown place.

Im believing psalm 32:8-
"I will intruct you in the way you should go, I will counsel you and watch over you."