"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Tonight I'm praying these words from Philippeans would be true for me. That as I ask God for things and give over my anxieties to Him, His miraculous unfathomable peace will guard my heart and my mind in Jesus. If youre reading my blog, please pray for me that I would not doubt God and I would really trust Him deeply with where He has called me and all the things He has given/taken away recently, especially my support.
This weekend was our missions conference at Mitchell Road Presbyterian Church, where missionaries from all over the world come to update us and tell us all that God is using them to do to advance the gospel around the world. Honestly, its one of my favorite times because I get to experience a taste of ministry outside of the US or in america in many different contexts. My field right now is the college campus! Which is exactly where God has me and where I need to be- but as I write I can tell you the truth, my heart is open to go wherever the Lord would lead me- here or far away.
Something big for me personally this weekend was thinking about the Biblical character Jonah and the disconnect he had in his heart. He knew God but did his own thing and wanted an easy life- like me. When we're disconnected from the heart of God, we're really disconnected from our own hearts too :( In thinking about this, I was challenged with a couple thoughts-
- why do I run to being an orphan daily, when I've got a dad who never fails me and always wants me?
-What am I doing with the longings of my soul? What things am I giving more adoration and thought too than I am to Jesus?
How do I respond? In my sinful heart I want to do more, go harder, be more useful for the Kingdom..but God says our righteous acts are like filthy rags. I am praying for a humble needy heart, we all must see ourselves as broken and in need of a savior. The whole truth of all that God has given us in Jesus is a miracle, so deep and rich it really never gets old the more you know of God and the more He reveals Himself to you and changes you. I dont think it ever gets easy to walk with God but thats my tendency to desire an easy life.
Lately I've been thinking about death alot, if you know me well you know that one of my best friends and mentors, Jessica, died a little over a year ago in training to be a missionary in Spain. I often get the chance to talk about her life with girls I'm building relationships with and leading in Bible studies, and its pricked my heart to think: If I died today, what would I be remembered for? What treasures am I storing up for myself here on earth that are useless and self centered?
Monday, March 8, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
Some perspective helpers
Today I listened to the song "Send Me" by Lecrae on repeat while I ran....I just have to post the lyrics because they paint a beautiful picture of a life not wasted!! I don't want to waste my life- I really want to spend it here for God's glory, go out and reach people and share what God has done in my life and tell of all that He has to offer!! I want to be sent, and I am now sent to reach the lost at Furman, maybe away from America at some point, but I have a willing heart to be used. Do you?
Send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
lemme go lemme go!
i seen it with my own two,
there’s no way i can show you
a perfectly poverty stricken people with no view.
And i bet you can’t believe this,
they never heard of jesus.
Heard young butler, lil wayne, and young jeezy.
No one’s signing up to go on missions this summa.
Rather sit at home and watch exibit pimp in a humma
while a nine year old is shot down.
No one’s screaming ’stop now!’
no bridge illustrations for criminals who on lock down.
People deep in africa
looking for an answer bra’.
In china man,
they’re dieing man,
until they know who died for sins.
So look what grace did.
Not for us to stay here
inside our comfort zones
at home in mama’s basement.
Get out on the grind y’all.
Ain’t no better time doll.
I know y’all read the great commission.
Let me just remind y’all:
make disciples of the nations.
Teach’m to obey the lord.
Have to lead someone to christ before i face the lord.
Send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
lemme go lemme go!
hey! After, 1,000 years in the west and the churches
get’n bigger daily without understand’n worship
Some regenerate but a lot ain’t saved.
You walk outside and be surprised cuz the block ain’t changed.
And the numbers they be get’n me.
Something just ain’t hit’n them.
America ain’t christian they practice’n the ritual.
That’s why we should be mission though.
Hey, what you think i’m spit’n for?
The united states is die’n
and in the east is looking pitiful.
Some places if they catch you
they’ll arrest you.
They’ll serve you,
but they still need the word too.
The gospel should be heard too.
We claim we ain’t ashamed,
but we ain’t hit the block up.
Were in our christian bubble,
while our brotha’s get’n locked up.
Lord i wanna stock up,
pack a bag and walk up
in a country where my faith may get me shot up
anywhere i go, whether my city or far abroad,
i just wanna show’ christ the risen holy god.
Send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
lemme go lemme go!
i know they’re die’n in the streets over in the middle east.
Some kids sink in piece
others hold’n up a piece.
If the violence doesn’t cease,
then at least the deceased
might know jesus as their savior as their bodies hit the streets.
And i know this is a graphic view.
And i pray that it’s attack’n you.
Track’n you to act and do
what you see in the back illusion.
Mathew twenty-four and fourteen.
We should read it twice
before we think that life is just a battle
see we free in christ!
Look dawg! Life is more than church work and football!
What if you were dead and seen that christians overlooked y’all!
This is why we leave the couch
and leave the comforts of our house
to show a die’n world a god they’ll probably never read about.
The great commission says make disciples of all nations.
Have we even made them in our own nation?
Come on christians!
Missions exist because worship doesn’t.
People don’t worship the god who made them.
We’re ambassadors.
Let’s go!
Send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
lemme go lemme go!
Send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
lemme go lemme go!
i seen it with my own two,
there’s no way i can show you
a perfectly poverty stricken people with no view.
And i bet you can’t believe this,
they never heard of jesus.
Heard young butler, lil wayne, and young jeezy.
No one’s signing up to go on missions this summa.
Rather sit at home and watch exibit pimp in a humma
while a nine year old is shot down.
No one’s screaming ’stop now!’
no bridge illustrations for criminals who on lock down.
People deep in africa
looking for an answer bra’.
In china man,
they’re dieing man,
until they know who died for sins.
So look what grace did.
Not for us to stay here
inside our comfort zones
at home in mama’s basement.
Get out on the grind y’all.
Ain’t no better time doll.
I know y’all read the great commission.
Let me just remind y’all:
make disciples of the nations.
Teach’m to obey the lord.
Have to lead someone to christ before i face the lord.
Send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
lemme go lemme go!
hey! After, 1,000 years in the west and the churches
get’n bigger daily without understand’n worship
Some regenerate but a lot ain’t saved.
You walk outside and be surprised cuz the block ain’t changed.
And the numbers they be get’n me.
Something just ain’t hit’n them.
America ain’t christian they practice’n the ritual.
That’s why we should be mission though.
Hey, what you think i’m spit’n for?
The united states is die’n
and in the east is looking pitiful.
Some places if they catch you
they’ll arrest you.
They’ll serve you,
but they still need the word too.
The gospel should be heard too.
We claim we ain’t ashamed,
but we ain’t hit the block up.
Were in our christian bubble,
while our brotha’s get’n locked up.
Lord i wanna stock up,
pack a bag and walk up
in a country where my faith may get me shot up
anywhere i go, whether my city or far abroad,
i just wanna show’ christ the risen holy god.
Send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
lemme go lemme go!
i know they’re die’n in the streets over in the middle east.
Some kids sink in piece
others hold’n up a piece.
If the violence doesn’t cease,
then at least the deceased
might know jesus as their savior as their bodies hit the streets.
And i know this is a graphic view.
And i pray that it’s attack’n you.
Track’n you to act and do
what you see in the back illusion.
Mathew twenty-four and fourteen.
We should read it twice
before we think that life is just a battle
see we free in christ!
Look dawg! Life is more than church work and football!
What if you were dead and seen that christians overlooked y’all!
This is why we leave the couch
and leave the comforts of our house
to show a die’n world a god they’ll probably never read about.
The great commission says make disciples of all nations.
Have we even made them in our own nation?
Come on christians!
Missions exist because worship doesn’t.
People don’t worship the god who made them.
We’re ambassadors.
Let’s go!
Send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
send me I’ll go,
lemme go lemme go!
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