Needy of Jesus

I Need Thee, O I need Thee;
Every hour I need Thee;
O bless me now, my Savior,
I come to Thee.

I need Thee every hour, stay Thou nearby;
Temptations lose their power when Thou art nigh.

I need Thee every hour, in joy or pain;
Come quickly and abide, or life is in vain.

I need Thee every hour; teach me Thy will;
And Thy rich promises in me fulfill.

I need Thee every hour, most Holy One;
O make me Thine indeed, Thou blessed Son




Jesus, we come to You needy...apart from You we can do nothing. 
Longing for heaven..

Pray earnestly for Matt Hill

Please please please take a minute RIGHT NOW as you read these words and ask God for Matt Hill to be found. Matt is 26, on staff with Campus Outreach in DC, and is the brother of Daniel Hill (my staff partner at FU). My heart is broken over the news that Matt hasnt been seen since Tuesday in DC- his car is gone, cell isnt on or is dead, and no one has heard from him :( PLEASE PARTNER WITH ME IN PRAYER. Please pray for Matt's brothers, Daniel and Adam, both younger, and his parents. This really touches my heart because Matt to Daniel is kind of like my twin Emily to me. He led Daniel spiritually and taught him what it means to trust Christ and live radically like Emily did for me. The only thing we can do is trust God and ASK. 

verses I am praying- 

for Daniel and Matt's whole fam- Isaiah 26:3 "You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you"

If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer." Matthew 21:22

what i have found comfort in reading..."In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." Romans 8:26

Matt's story

Em and I took a photography class!

what have i been up to?

fun things and not so fun things. I have more time on my hands than normal, and how can that translate into harder for me? I dont rest well and I love consistent fun stuff in my life. So, Im creating fun and as much of a normal life as i can:) Which means....zumba, seeing Brittni!, hanging with people i love like my house and older women and people i never get to see,  alot of time to think about who I am and where God is taking me, etc etc etc. And getting ready for the baby!!

The testing of your faith develops perseverance, and perseverance character, and character HOPE. My hope has to be in Jesus...like that verse in Heb. that says that we have this hope like an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It never fails us. Its like the bungee chord that definitely catches you no matter how many years in a row you jump, or the parachute that never ever gets old. Its so secure and firm that no matter what conditions, it always works, never tears, never fails you. Even if you think it is, it isnt. I think right now, in some ways, I can see where I've thought, its too good to be true. I rely on myself, but what can I offer?  This hope is not like me- I am not who I say I am. Im inconsistent in the heart, emotions, everything,

By God's grace I am what I am....nothing else, nothing more. I am tired of putting pressure on myself to be perfect. I want to be free of meeting everyone else's expectations, and most importantly, my own, which I never meet.

All my days are recorded already. Thats crazy! That really calls for radical trust.
God break me down, like you are, so I only rely on You.

its almost summer:)

idolizing Christ

My thoughts and life have seemed scattered lately, and that feels like reality. Reality feels like one of those trick ladders at carnivals that you start to climb and think youre definitely going to make it, but it suddenly twists and you can barely hold on. You fall off, or you manage to hang on and try again and again. Life feels like a bunch of "maybes", unknowns, question marks. But, my heart knows that even though thats what reality feels like, reality is alot better than these changing emotions and circumstances. Reality is that Christ is the only true, stable, unchanging person in my life. He is constant, He is sovereign, and all my days are already recorded in His book.

Today when I was outside walking, a song came on my ipod called "I Have Nothing" by Ginny Owens, which reminds me alot of what I'm thinking about my own life. Basically, I applied it to my circumstances like this- I can do alot of things that are good, noble, get praise from man, but if I dont love and cherish and cling to Jesus above anything else in this world, if He is not the One compelling me, then its all in vain. What am I spending my life on? What wont last into heaven that I am selling out my heart to?


I could travel over oceans, cross the deserts, climb the mountains
Just to share Your story, bring You glory, and win souls for You.
I could sing like an angel, songs so humble and so thankful
Full of drama and emotion, so the world would know Your truth.
I could give away my money and my clothes and my food
To restore those people who are poor, lost, and down-and-out.
Oh, I could succeed at all these things,
Find favor with peasants and kings,
But if I do not love, I am nothing.

I could live a flawless life,
Never cheat or steal or lie,
And always speak so kindly, smile so warmly, and go about doing good.
I could dedicate myself to do what everyone else wants me to-
Listen to them, compliment them, say the things I should.
I could show up every Sunday, lead the Choir and Bible Study
And they all might come to know me as a leader and a friend.
Oh, I could achieve success on Earth, but success cannot define my worth
And all these actions, all these words, they will not matter in the end-


Cause songs will fade to silence,
Stories, they will cease.
The dust will settle, covering all my selfless deeds.
So as I strive to serve You,
Won't You make it clear to me,
That If I do not love, I am nothing.


and If I cannot live my life loving my brother,
Then how can I love the One who lived His life for me?

Oh, Sent to Earth from Heaven,
Humble Servant, Holy King,
Come to share a story, get no glory, and save my searching soul,
You knew that I'd deny You, crucify You, but nothing could stop You from
living for me, dying for me, so that I would know